Where I stand creatively

With years, creativity became my life.  I started from zero.  Very young, I didn't have much interest in music, in crafting or anything along those line.  I was the weird kit that was doing thing differently from the others.  I put different colour when coloring a clown.  I didn't put brown for the shoes, no red for the nose, no orange for the hair.  I was totally off the norm.  I didn't felt I fit with the others, at the same thing, I liked to be different.  The others didn't really came to bother me for my differences.

I liked when I was going to the psychologist.  I felt free there.  I could go into a room full of playthings.  I could choose one and answer questions while I played.  Fast forward as a teenager, I had some interest in music but I didn't have discovered all the music and musical artists that I like today.  No interest in the art classes at the time.  Music class was a bit interesting but the teacher was not really totally present to show us more musically wise.  He had personal problem to attend to and was isolated from teaching.  I haven't figured out why he didn't took a leave from teaching in that period.  In those years, I started to get interested in writing.

In more recent years, let say in the past 11 years, I got into more various interests: jewelry making, fimo, soap making, candle making, returning to knitting, returning to woodburning, maturing in writing (still learning), etc...  So, it is not evident to see my path now.  I feel a bit a jack of all trade and master of none.  What is defining me the most right now?  It is as if I knew too much and that I can't choose, I can't decide what is my favorite crafting moment.  Some times, I wonder if I could embrace the diversity I acquired and not bothering about anything else.

I guess I am still doing some soul searching. I didn't found my creative individuality.  It is all a work in progress.  I know that I am not to the teacher level of what I am good at.  I had given some advices to some people.  I guess that having a creative voice is not evident for everybody.  I still have to work on my various craft in hoping to get an «ah-ha» moment.