It look botched but it is practice

I find it sad.  I wanted to practice embroidery but the result look like botched.  As seen above, it is the back of a present embridery project.  It look rushed but it is not.  It makes me feel that I wasn't careful enough.  It is a practice and I need it.  I just wanted the project to look a bit more decent than that.  Looking at it, I found it is really sloppy on my part.  I will continue this project but only to try and see if I will get better along the way and hoping it will look more decent at the end.

The ultimate goal with it is to be able to do something free hand and with an expert end looking product.  I guess it will take some time before I achieve that level.  I know understand now the professional artists.  They are perfectionists and I feel that pull too, especially looking at the photo.  It is far of what I wanted to have.  I know that everybody need to start somewhere.  My expectation was to be able to pick up this craft a little bit faster than other people.  I say faster than other people because I use a lot my hands, so I should be quicker to handle any handy crafts.  I may expect a little too much of myself but I am what I am...  I am sure to stay obstinate and hoping for a less sloppy job.