I got my label. It is official. I had done the tests and it is crytal clear. I am not happy to have a label but it explain a lot. It explain a lot of my past. It also makes me angry because no one had seen it before. No one had seen it even if I had seen psychologists in a children specialized hospital. I am also angry to my first grade teacher that saw my lack of interest in others. My label makes her right in what she saw in me. I also feel that a lot of people had failed me and maybe I failed myself. I have not clicked on that sooner. It would had saved me a lot of trouble if I had the help I needed back then. It would had helped some of my entourage too.
I also saw a psychologist as a teenager. I am not angry with that psychologist. She had helped me more on some aspects of my life. At least, it was her that connect me with a dream journal. My dream journal had been a corner stone of my life. It was also nice to talk to that psychologist. She had the knack with younger people, well with me.
Now that the process is done, I feel better. It explain it a lot. Now, the next step. I probably will move on and be able to explain my unconventional behavior. It will save me a lot of trouble in a social context. It would be nice to have a person who would speak for myself. It would be something nice because my personal speaker would explain everything better.
I am a bit curious how it will affect me now that I have the label. I wonder if this will come with some advantage, even if I am an adult. I wonder if it will improve my life. It relate more to the future, anyway and in a sense, it does not change much. The future is always unknown, so it does not change too much. I don't think I will wait for long to see what that label will bring to me. For the rest, time to return to create and do some craft!
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