Creativity: therapy and escapism?

Creating is a big part of my life.  I often says it is therapeutic for me.  It is helpimg me, it is true.  I have an outlet to express myself.  It create a bubble where I channel myself, what I am.  I like to express a darker side of myself and a truer side of me, that is when I write.  On jewelry making, lately, I have created for other people.  I have done some creation with part of myself and with them in mind.  While creating something, with my hand (it is usually and mainly jewelry), I immerse myself in.  It makes me feel better after the creation.  During creation, I may stumble on some frustrations.  In those occasion, my mind is working on the problems.  I can see errors at the end, looking at what I made.  On the other hand, I am happy to have completed a project to the end, with some errors that show it is handmade.  Creating is my therapy.  I need it to feel better, to keep it flowing and to feel alive.

Lately, I have started to wonder.  I do have questions, those nagging existential questions.  What I am doing with my life?  What should I do now?  What is the meaning of my life?  Did I failed what I have done until now?  What direction should I take from now on?  How to use my creativity?  Should I concentrate on one creative path or stay as I am now: a free jack of all trade and not really a master of any technique?  Should I become a creative pro?  I don't think I am the ideal guru in any case.  I do have those questions in the last few years.  It is just they become a bit more nagging.  Lately, I have started to feel and wonder if the creative process does slow me down in answering those big question. I don't have the answer to those questions when creating.  So, I wonder if too much creativity is resulting in leading to escapism.  I start to see that it may interfere, at least slow me down a bit.  Or I should set some time aside and try to find the answers.  I did had done some thinking but it only lead me in circle without any answers.

So, lot of thinking.  I also end up in thinking that creativity can be therapeuthic and an escape from life.  I don't have any answers to my questions.  I don't know if I will have them one day.  I will pursue creation.  It is my therapy and an escape.  I don't know if it will change.  I wonder if I can turn this in a more fruitful venture, to makes it more profitable.  I know that I don't have lot of support of some people in my entourage.  I don't know if it will change later on.  I have to figure out how to do the process of creating a piece of jewelry to a further level.  I need to take my creativity to the next level.  I don't know if I will enjoy living from creativity or if I will make it to a successful level.  It remain to be seen.